Saudade

It’s tough.

I’m angry, I’m hurt,

My personality is draining away with my sense of humour 

god i can’t remember the last time i actually laughed

i think i’m probably boring my friends

with these endless expressions

I trudge instead of walk,

I can’t seem to find that skip in my walk,

I sob instead of cry

i have dark eye circles under my eyes

Time goes by

My life is rushing by

But I don’t feel it

god I can’t remember what it feels like to be happy

I loved that rush

yet you took it away

now i sit in agonizing silence

knowing I should walk away

but I don’t care for me

I want to care about you.