Through Another Lens

Remains

who knew words would cut so deep, 

how some people leave an everlasting scar 

the slightest essence, a trigger 

even hundreds of miles away, that far 

it feels like a dream, 

sometimes it seems so surreal 

when it hasn’t even crossed your mind 

how can this be real 

I’d bet it makes no difference, 

that the only person it affects still is me 

people, time, everything has moved on 

if only I could open my eyes and truly see 

how much I can hear in a voice, 

the remains of a smile 

engraved in my mind 

it’s been so long, it hasn’t been just a while 

you have no clue, none at all, 

what effect you have 

i had no idea i’d be leaving pieces of my heart 

scattered in my past 

truly, no idea how long it’d last 

I couldn’t even guess 

I spent so long against it 

my throat so tight I can’t even start to express 

this feeling of being so lost 

I’d just like to say hello from the other side 

because I never actually got a chance to say goodbye 

so many times to myself I lied 

so I guess it’s no big deal 

that this will be another time. 

I didn't know the last time I saw you, was goodbye.

Ghosts

Do you remember

The people you've left 

Behind

The black and white memories

That when you look back to

You don't feel a thing?

They are the people in your past

That you've decided 

Aren't worth right now

Aren't worth remembering

But they are

The people that miss you the most.

Blink of an Eye

It's Greener on the Other Side

a colourful next morning

a lazy stroll by waterfront

the greenery enraptures

a sight for eyes

horizons 

which path to take 

a storm on both the inside and the out

Lingering Moments

those wistful 2am late night thoughts

a creative streak

a quiet empty afternoon in bahen

Saudade

It’s tough.

I’m angry, I’m hurt,

My personality is draining away with my sense of humour 

god i can’t remember the last time i actually laughed

i think i’m probably boring my friends

with these endless expressions

I trudge instead of walk,

I can’t seem to find that skip in my walk,

I sob instead of cry

i have dark eye circles under my eyes

Time goes by

My life is rushing by

But I don’t feel it

god I can’t remember what it feels like to be happy

I loved that rush

yet you took it away

now i sit in agonizing silence

knowing I should walk away

but I don’t care for me

I want to care about you.

Deafening Silence

"you don't realize how far away you are, until there's someone you want to be near."