Calm Night

when your heart feels heavy

with a weight you can’t unload

a burden you can’t just shrug off your shoulders

if only,

when you feel numb and empty

but you’ve lost interest in just about everything else

you’re bored but nothing seems to work

you just can’t be distracted

and yet you’re distracted all the time

because you’re tried so hard to avoid it

if only

but no matter, once again, you’re stuck

like holding a glass ball

so beautiful and simple but delicate too

you know better than to drop it

but of course, I fumble and now im left surrounded

by the broken pieces

if only,

I wasn’t human

I could just shrug my feelings away

I could just not feel.

  © Alexandra Kuo