when your heart feels
heavy
with a weight you can’t
unload
a burden you can’t just
shrug off your shoulders
if only,
when you feel numb and
empty
but you’ve lost interest
in just about everything else
you’re bored but nothing
seems to work
you just can’t be
distracted
and yet you’re
distracted all the time
because you’re tried so
hard to avoid it
if only
but no matter, once
again, you’re stuck
like holding a glass
ball
so beautiful and simple
but delicate too
you know better than to
drop it
but of course, I fumble
and now im left surrounded
by the broken pieces
if only,
I wasn’t human
I could just shrug my
feelings away
I could just not feel.
© Alexandra Kuo
